Moving

I need to stop complaining about moving so much too,

But i mean I've moved almost 8 times sence i left home, and only been to 5 different places with in the moves. It seem like just when i grow roots they're riped out from under me. but at least i have a place i can tempararly call home for just a little while.

I really would just like to stay in one place longer then a year, but i know that will never happen with the life Lee leads but i knew that before i married him so i dont blame him.

thankfully i only had to move twice when i was in school. so i got to have all but 3 grades in different places. than again i hated everything about going to school in Sussex, full of mostly rednecks, and people who though they were better then me,

You have no idea how much i hated school all the way through i have at one time 2 super good friends at one time, everyone else was just kinda there, oh sure they were friends but they never really took the time to really get to know me.

yeah i had boyfriends but only 2 total, wasn't the most popular girl in school for sure I'm surprised i even had one. one ended after forever lasting roller coaster but yea we're still really good friends, although i cant say the same about the other one, i don't even know to this day why we broke up. but that doesn't really matter now does it?

I think my worst year was my last, you know i always figured it would be my best, but nope no luck. It was off to a good start though, i had the best summer i'd have ever and then started my last year in the hole of a school, and wouldnt have to see any of the dirt bags ever again, just one more year. I started a new church, new youth group, i just wanted to belong somewhere, and i did for a while until i had to stupid and date a guy, who through everyone in my new found group turned on me, and never turned back even to this day, although the one who caused the problem is talking to me, too weird, but whatever i guess i cant hate her forever b/c of it.

wow i didn't think this would have such an effect on me talking about it, makes be both mad and sad, such a waste of time trying to please people who turned their backs on me, and all for what some guy!? and we as a couple didn't even last more the 2 month! what the heck?! and even after him some other guy liked me but i couldn't get over the past hurt from everything so i turned him down to date him guess what new found shunning and backstabbing. these people were supost to be Christians! all this over a GUY!

thank goodness i never had to go through any of this with Lee or i probably would have told him to stick it, and i wouldn't deal with it anymore.

well thats my little rant for today haha have a good one. :)

~Heidi