Job interview results

i told you yesterday i had a job interview, and now i'm telling you how it went, the job portion of the inter view went fine, i answered all the questions right and to the best of my ability. And i though the deal was in the bag, until they handed me a math test. my heart sunk to the floor b/c i already knew i wouldn't pass it. they needed to give it to me b/c sometimes the registers go down and they need people who can figure how much things are going to be in their head. and I already know I'm not that person. its sad really b/c once i began to think that i can survive like any "normal" person i realize that I'm not and i get sucked back down to knowing that i cant do math or calculate things like everyone else.

Will i ever find a place where i fit where i wont have to worry about not doing things like everyone else not to be afraid that i cant do math like everyone else. i felt so stupid today, i couldn't figure out more then half the questions and some of even the minus questions i wasn't even sure how to figure them out.

life seems to be giving me one blow after another. and I'm tired of crying and feeling sorry for myself, i want some purpose in my life!